The "Spark"...

I had an online conversation with a good friend recently. It was thought provoking, despite all the misspellings. :-)

M : there was a guy
M : named louis
M : when i was young
M : he really was an influence on me
M : he was a person that was in the original punk scene
M : so he was slightly older
M : in bands
M : moved to nyc
M : late 70s early 80s
M : i found out he died a few years back
M : in alabany ny
M : motorcycle accident
M : he was greatly loved
M : and became a filmmaker
M : indie of course

M : he was a true anarchist spirit
M : and a great pal
M : im only telling you because i think you would have gotten along
J : Because of our mutual dislike of the government?
M : he just reminds me of you

M : i remember him complaining about things..he was unhealthy
M : and one day he really just took off
M : and excelled
M : i think you will too
M : to be frank
M : you have more in you than you allot
M : you are often self deprecating
M : and honestly..i think you are pretty special
M : youll find a niche

M : he talked just like you
M : when we were young
M : the pressure in you will build up..youll see..and when the road ahead finally becomes clear..youll burn up the track
M : right now you are building steam
M : but itll come
M : you are still very young.

J : I would not be satisfied with a so-called "normal" life.
M : thats very true
M : and good to remember
J : I used to envy how everyone (my peers) has found "their place"
M : that takes time
M : its not an obvious path
M : especially for a complicated person
M : in the grand scheme of things..you are just starting
M : stay free and open to possibility
M : ...anyway..just reading about louis and seeing him well loved and had a very full life..it reminded me of his angst and how he sounded a lot like you

M : Do anything creative
M : its the only thing to save ppl like us
M : u have obvious intelligence and spark

M : this world is geared towards idiots
M : that this society rewards ppl that parrot information (without understanding), produce without rocking the boat, and have the ability to stand in line well and wait there turn with the other cattle
M : if you are not like that...
M : if you have independent thouht..this world is not for you
M : so you have to be smart
M : and not succumb to malaise